continued In a blog she created to inform her many friends of her condition and keep them posted about how she was feeling, Heather reacted to the diagnosis a few days after she found out, on June 29, 2008:
“In the next few days there were many emotions. Sorrow, anger, fear, determination, loneliness. I had to face my own mortality. Not because I believed that I was going to die, but because I had to face the possibility. I was diagnosed with a stage IV cancer of unknown origin. The questions far outweighed the answers. Of course there was a possibility. And facing that was the only way to move past it.
“I am not afraid of death. I am honestly much more afraid of chemo. I know where I am going after I die. I know that I will be at peace. But I am not afraid because I know it is not my time. I have so much more to do. This is only a small step. This is part of fulfilling my purpose. I see how my life, my disease, my diagnosis affects everyone, and I know that I need to get through this because it is only a stepping stone. It is something I need to conquer so that I can help other people.
“God never gives you something that you can’t handle. I truly believe this. As I looked upon my life and my friends and family I know that it had to be me. I am equipped to handle this. I am strong enough to endure this fight. And I have all the strength of heaven on my side. When the Lord is with you, who can be against you?
“I can’t imagine trying to go through this without faith. Without the grace of God to pull you through. He is my strength.